I've always had trouble articulating my thoughts - finding a way to weave my experiences and opinions into something that others would enjoy reading or draw inspiration from. English was my weakest subject throughout my schooling career, and even to this day replying to long emails that require a lot of thought can take me days to tackle. So why did I choose to pursue blogging? Good question. An intense passion for all things beauty plus a love for anything arty and creative drove me forward, but now, nearly four years later, my journey has been an ever-changing and unexpected one. I've gone from a scared teenage girl with big changes ahead of her to a more outspoken, confident young woman with a few more experiences in her back pocket and an uncertain future. My approach to blogging has changed - I am no longer satisfied with post after post of lipstick swatches - I want to make something more of myself and the work I produce. It's not that I don't love the beauty world, I do and I wouldn't be writing about it so often if I didn't, but I feel like I need to pop the beauty bubble that I've been stuck inside for so long and see what lies beyond. But this is where I hit a wall. Some of the best content that I've produced (in my opinion, anyway) has been me pouring my heart out onto the page and seeing the incredible response that it receives, but every time I go to write up something new, that 15 year old girl that plays Crazy Taxi through every single English class is rolling her eyes at me. She knows that it's not my strength, not what I got into blogging for, and also knows all too well my deep-seeded insecurities about being deemed 'not good enough' - not just in my writing, but in practically every aspect of my life. Every time I want to start a new post that is more chit-chatty and less of a review, I feel like the wording, the punctuation and the style has to be perfect - like I'm back in that exam hall again ready to be scrutinised and marked on every mistake I make. I have friends and colleges both inside the blogging world and beyond who I regard as such talented writers, and I fear that anything less than their quality of writing should be frowned upon or avoided altogether. But the comparisons stop here. From now on, I am going to write to my heart's content and not worry if I don't end up with a literary piece of art, because that's not me, and that's not what my blog is about. I want to write about what matters to me - whether that be cream highlights or mental health issues - and I'm going to write it as me, because only I can tell my story.
Isobel x

6 comments

  1. I love your more personal posts, really! I'm happy you've made this decision :)
    I have the same problem with writing and expressing my opinions/emotions, whether it's speaking or writing. It's just not my thing. But, actually, people don't care that much, they just want to understand you and to connect with you :)

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  2. I'm happy to see you've decided to go ahead anyway! I'm also insecure sometimes, but hey! People come to your blog because they like you and the story you have to tell, they're most likely not looking for perfection!

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  3. Aw thanks Irene, your support means so much! I'll definitely keep your advice in mind - this isn't a literary blog after all! x

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  4. Gracias Carla! Escribir es algo difícil para mi, pero quiero continuar y mejorar! Necesito recordar que no estoy una novelista pero un blogger que encanta el maquillaje! Besos.

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  5. Love yor personal posts; I actually think this will be great for your blog, and dont worry about being perfect no one is :). I also find it difficult to write, even if its just an email.

    (Btw i still play crazy taxy more often than i should ;) )

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  6. Thanks Karii! Haha I need to play some crazy taxi ;) x

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