A little lost...Thursday, July 17, 2014
(This is obviously not me, but instead a photo I took of my beautiful friend Kiara when she came to visit Madrid)
As much as I hate to admit it, I'm really not enjoying the content I've been churning out on the blog lately, and that sucks. For a month or so now, despite trying to overcome it, I have found myself putting all of my effort into posts and never really being happy with the outcome. At the beginning of this year I was in such a great place with my content; I was 100% happy with most, if not all of my posts, and I was excited to publish them and for them to pop up in all of your feeds. Now? Not so much. I have a few posts in the works that I have enjoyed working on and am excited to release, but I just don't feel happy with what I'm doing, and it's showing. My views have dropped ever since I've lost my way, so you guys are more than likely enjoying my content just as much as I am; which is really frustrating because I obviously want to put great posts for you guys. These blogging highs and lows are a common thing, but this hasn't come at the best time, as I don't have much else to distract me with, therefore allowing me to sit and overthink things far too often. I actually find that I produce better content when I'm at uni, especially when I'm busy, yet I seem to lose inspiration and motivation when I have more free time, which doesn't really make any sense. With the summer holidays stretching before me, I should be overflowing with creativity, with posts coming out of my ears, but no. Perhaps it's because I'm *supposed* to be writing my dissertation, the fact that I'm starting my final year of university in two months and I don't feel in anyway, shape or form ready for it, or maybe it's because I'm feeling pretty rubbish about everything lately. A scattered and unfulfilled mind doesn't lead to creative brilliance, I can tell you that much.
I'm heading to Moscow for a month to sort out my shitty Russian language skills next weekend, so hopefully a break will help to clear my mind and, as cheesy as it sounds, soothe my soul a bit. If I'm honest, I'm genuinely just feeling a bit lost and overwhelmed at the moment, and hopefully I will sort myself out this summer. I'm trying to schedule a bunch of posts for next month because I don't know how reliable the internet will be where I'm staying, but just bear with me. I don't know how many posts will be going up in the month of August, but hey, it's not the be-all and end-all is it? Knowing me, I'll probably be struck down with a massive surge of blogging inspiration the day, nay the hour my final year starts, but such is life. So, I'll leave you guys with the knowledge that I'm trying as hard as I can to produce better and better posts, but if things all seem a bit scattered and disjointed in the month of two to come, you know why.